When a cashier recognizes you..

Welp I was at Target today getting a ton of diapers and random groceries when the cashier told me she recognized my name from following our blog. How crazy is that??Talking to her made me get a bug up my butt to find time to make an update :) If you are reading this you totally made my day!

As most of you know Baby G number three was born on March 4, 2017, exactly four weeks early. We named her Lux Ariadne <3. She surprised us with my water breaking unknowingly. I was at an appointment getting my blood pressure checked when I just happened to tell my doctor I had felt a weird pop earlier that morning. She did an amniotic fluid test and it came back positive. Labor was beyond easy. I was dilated all the way to a seven without feeling any pain. I didn't want to lose my chance at an epidural so I had them give me one even though I was completely fine at that point. Part of me wishes I didn't get one because she was born less than an hour after that. Two pushes and BAM she was out:)

At first we thought she was going to be fine being born at 36 weeks but her breathing and blood sugar levels went down rapidly. She spent eight days in the NICU and was then healthy enough to come home.

Adding baby number three was a surprisingly an easy adjustment. We are already changing two diapers, what's one more? ;)

Lux is 8 months old today! She's super smiley, and you can definitely tell she is the third child. At this age both Rev and Kaetheo were crawling and Lux isn't even close - I prefer it that way!

As for other updates, Kaetheo is now fully potty trained! Thank goodness three in diapers was short lived. Rev is close behind, it's just a matter of time and she will be using the potty just like her big brother.

Luckily we already had already reached our out of pocket max with our insurance with having Lux because Kaetheo has had quite a eventful year with doctors and emergency rooms. He just loves to jump around and play hard. He had his second set of stitches back in April when he fell while running to hide in his closet and sliced his ear. It did require stitches.

 Two weeks ago he had a surgery to correct a couple of minor things from when he was an infant.

Along with that yesterday he ran to climb on his daddy's computer chair and as it spun he fell off and cut his eye. I talked the ER doc into just gluing it instead of getting stitches because this boy has had enough! Luckily he said the scar wouldn't be much different either way.

Revie is obsessed with Lux. She is her newest favorite toy and she never gets sick of her. She keeps busy by trying to help mommy as much as she can.

Summer was eventful! We camped a full ten days with all three kiddos in a rented camper this year. It was a lot of fun. I think the kiddos loved the freedom of getting dirty, riding bikes, playing in the rain, etc.! 

The kiddos got to trick or treat a couple different days this year. On actual Halloween they dressed up as Minions with their cousins. It was pretty cute to see a bunch of toddler Minion heads running from house to house.

People have asked if our family is complete and to be honest we are not ready to say that. I think Jordan and I hope to have at least one more <3

Random Pic below:))

Three under three is soon to be!

WHAAAT???

Jordan and I were at volleyball when I started to not feel well. My stomach was turning and my abdomen was cramping. Thoughts started running through my mind and I was in denial ..there is NO WAY. 

I told Jordan we needed to stop at Target on our way home and we did. De ja vu hit when I went in the aisle to buy that test. It brought back so many emotions .. Hope, fear , excitement, anger, sadness everything ! This was the first time I was in that aisle feeling in shock instead of full fledged fear of disappointment. I couldn't believe I was buying a pregnancy test.. 

We went home to relieve our babysitter but one of us had to drive her home. I told Jordan I was going to run her home quick but he stopped me and made me to take the test quick so he could look at the results while I was gone. 

I quickly ran into the bathroom did my thing ..put it on the counter and ran out to meet our babysitter at the car. 

As I got to our babysitters house I got a text from Jordan that said "negative." 

For some reason I just didn't believe it.. I called Jordan on my way home and I said "are you sure?? Remember with Reverie the line was so light you couldn't see it??" 

His response to me was...

"Kaylah I'm looking at it now and there is only one... Ohhhhh wait.... There's a light pink line now. We're pregnant. "

My stomach sunk... Fear and excitement struck me hard . What if the baby isn't in the right uterus (remember I have 2) what if we lose it.. Blahblah. 

I called the doctor that night and had a blood test right away the next morning. My hcg levels were a whopping 15 (which is extremely low for those of you who are not familiar). 

My doctor said we could have just caught it extremely early and he started me on progesterone supplements. 

We had to wait for 2 days to test again and of course I started spotting before I went in for that test. I tried to remind myself that I spotted with Reverie and she was fine . 

I waited what felt like all day for those test results and the nurse called and told me my numbers more then doubled and were currently over 100. Our numbers were increasing perfectly. 

Fast forward and now we are 17 weeks and expecting to find out gender next week! 

So there it is !! We are expecting baby G number 3 and we couldn't be happier!  Kaetheo and Rev are going to be big siblings!! 

Baby G #3 is expected to arrive March 31st!

Update, Confessions, pictures, and more!

Alright it's time for us to update this blog! Let's be honest..blogging became a lot harder once babies came into the picture!

First off if you have not seen it yet, my mom made a video for us documenting our entire adoption journey to Kaetheo. If you haven't yet seen it go watch it! It is actually part 2 of 2. We will do the infertility part soonish. Searcing for Baby G Adoption Video

Life has been busy. Finding time to ourselves is difficult, but we tend to find it. We have a babysitter come once a week for our volleyball nights which gets us out of the house together and getting active. We love it! 

We have been staying REALLY busy as a family. Parades, parks, splash pads, walks, birthday parties,  graduations etc. 

Kaetheo has been picking up his role as big brother as he learns more and more. He is either protecting Revie or torturing her:). He did get his first set of stitches. He fell off a step and bonked his lip and it required 4 of them! I am pretty sure it was worse on me then him. He was loving the attention ;)

Revie likes to follow her brother around and talk to him. They are starting to interact more now that they are both interested in the same things. She loves to be chased around the house and loves to be held . All. The. Time. 

I get asked probably once-twice if Kaetheo and Rev are twins. At first I told people the story because I love the story, but after the 6th time being asked in Target(in the same day) I resorted to just saying they are Irish twins! It causes less questions when I'm in a hurry;)

In November of last year I noticed that I needed more energy to chase around our kiddos so I decided a lifestyle change was needed. I officially have lost 50LBS! I am pretty proud of myself for losing all the baby weight & more. I work at least 3 times a week and I am loving all the energy I have. <33

My confession:

Some have asked us if we plan to have more kiddos and if you would have asked me about 6 months ago I would have said that I didn't think so.  It is extremely hard to admit but after having Reverie I suffered from some extreme post partum anxiety. I didn't tell many people because I didn't want anyone to think I was ungrateful for my two amazing blessings that came into my life. 

People have asked how we stayed so strong through our infertility and adoption struggle and the answer is we hid it. We even hid it from ourselves. The moment after having Reverie I struggled with pretty intense anxiety which I had never experienced before. My anxiety stemmed from our failed adoptions, miscarriages, failed cycles, etc.. 

We went into the adoption process pretty naive thinking certain situations wouldn't happen to us. After what feels like everything bad DID infact happen to us I was also expecting the worst with our pregnancy. I waited to go into labor early. I waited to be told we lost her. I waited for the bad to happen because I was trying to prepare myself for another tragedy. Everything with Reverie's birth went perfect, so then I assumed something was going to happen afterwards.  In the meantime of worrying about my pregnancy I became very protective of Kaetheo. A little excessive, but I ask you to please not blame me. 

If you are a friend, family member or acquaintance that maybe has witnessed me be a little over protective I ask you to put yourself in my shoes. After going through multiple losses I was and am doing everything I can to never lose another child. Little things like no blankets in the crib until the age of one or double checking a car seat belt might seem tedious, but if I can prevent one less tragedy in my life by those small things I think it is worth it. 

I have been feeling a lot better, a lot more like myself. My mind isn't as anxious anymore and I am so thankful for that. I still struggle with anxiety a little bit, but I think it's way more of a normal amount that comes with being parents to two toddlers:) If anyone you know is going through any sort of PPD or PPA please reach out to them. I wish I would have understood when doctors were asking me after my pregnancy if I felt depressed, that anxiety is also a major post partum problem. To anyone that is suffering now: IT DOES GET BETTER! It took over a year for me:)

End of confession.

Now on to some happy stuff: NOW if you ask me now if we are going to have more children the answer is YES. We are not even close to done. I wanted six kiddos when Jordan and I got married and we compromised at four. I believe however it's not up to us. It is up to fate. We can confidently say we plan to start the adoption process here again in the near future but we just might change it up a bit:)

Kaetheo's birth grandma cut his hair! 

How can you not love this face! 

Kaetheo and cousin Felix. He calls him "Tickets"

Rev and her new dress she got for her birthday!

I just love this one. 

This is our life. I think we are pretty blessed!

XOXOXOXO